I feel so blessed to have such a wonderful family! The past few months I have struggled to find a balance in motherhood. Trying to check everything off that long list that belongs to a mother all while staying sane. I especially have felt frustrated, maybe guilty for not adding to GDP or our own bank account. But after thinking, praying, talking it out with my mom and friends, and a little Dr Laura, I know this is what I am supposed to be doing. I love being the one who gets up with the kids in the morning and puts them down at night. I love that I am the one who makes their meals (minus the cafe rio, mc d & wendy's) I am so happy that I am the one who gets to help Ashtyn work through all the social drama of a 2nd grader. I love that I get to help Alayna use her words, and learn not to talk (or act) like a Tarradactyl. My faith grows when I am worried about Jacob and don't know why he has been coughing for 2 months, until my friend goes to a training class and because she is in tune, and answers my prayers with a A.R. diagnosis. I love my husband who even though I called him a ball and chain, still runs with me and genuinely loves me and wants to see me reach the goals I have set for myself. I am so grateful for a mother who is teaching me (and my family) so much. And although I don't have the degree I want. I don't have a career. I don't have a salary. Today (Thanks to Ashtyn, Alayna, Jacob, Jay & Mom) I feel smart, productive and rich.